I’m ashamed to be white.

I shouldn’t be, but I am.
I’m ashamed to be an American.
I shouldn’t be, but I am.

The BBC just broke the story about a church shooting in South Carolina. The story is still unfolding but it appears to be, surprise surprise, racially motivated. What the fuck is happening?

I’m not a church going person myself but even I can admit that is a SERIOUSLY shitty place to commit a SERIOUSLY HEINOUS act.

What. The. Fuck?

In Ohio yesterday, a black woman and her family were pepper sprayed at a public pool. I suppose the only upside, inasmuch as there could be, to that story is at least they weren’t shot.

Alabama suspends police officers for being members of a white supremacist group?

And while not racist the fucking moron from Spokane doesn’t get a pass for having more than one screw loose and being a manipulative sociopath. Yea, I said it. Sociopath. However she identifies and while I believe her intentions were good, she had NO business in that role and has probably done way more damage than good.

Jesus, this is just this week! It’s WEDNESDAY!

Where did all this racism crap come from?  And where is it gonna take us?

I’m not naive, I know racism has always been around in one form or another. And as a white man, it’s hard for me to even imagine what it’s like. But what  I can do is get angry and ask “What is happening?” and “Why?”

Seriously. What. The. Fuck!

I just read an article today in Vice about a gang in the south called the Simon City Royals. Interesting interview with one of the members. Interesting in the sense that the gang is integrated and doesn’t exclude by race or religion. Don’t get me wrong, they’re probably not the nicest guys in the world and being integrated hardly makes them benchmark citizens. That said, the first comment about sums up the state of things “Wow, prison gangs now more racially evolved than police departments. What’s the world coming too.

This is NOT who we are supposed to be as Americans.

Fuck, it’s not who we are supposed to be as HUMAN BEINGS.

EVERYONE has prejudices. I get that. But I don’t wanna kill my neighbor because she thinks Gluten is the dietary equivalent of Cyanide. I suspect she doesn’t wanna kill me either (although, constantly saying that I am a member of the Gluten Industrial Complex might give her cause).

It was 47 years ago that Bobby Kennedy was assassinated. As I was reading up on that recently, I was reminded of the speech he gave in Indianapolis the night that Martin Luther King was murdered. I think it’s worth reading today. And if you’re too fucking lazy to read it, I’ve included the video after the text.

I wish we would all take heed. If we don’t I fear for the future of our children, our country and our democracy (what remains of it).

When is it gonna stop?

We’re better than all this racist shit.

Aren’t we?

The speech:

Ladies and Gentlemen,

I’m only going to talk to you just for a minute or so this evening, because I have some — some very sad news for all of you — Could you lower those signs, please? — I have some very sad news for all of you, and, I think, sad news for all of our fellow citizens, and people who love peace all over the world; and that is that Martin Luther King was shot and was killed tonight in Memphis, Tennessee.

Martin Luther King dedicated his life to love and to justice between fellow human beings. He died in the cause of that effort. In this difficult day, in this difficult time for the United States, it’s perhaps well to ask what kind of nation we are and what direction we want to move in. For those of you who are black — considering the evidence evidently is that there were white people who were responsible — you can be filled with bitterness, and with hatred, and a desire for revenge.

We can move in that direction as a country, in greater polarization — black people amongst blacks, and white amongst whites, filled with hatred toward one another. Or we can make an effort, as Martin Luther King did, to understand, and to comprehend, and replace that violence, that stain of bloodshed that has spread across our land, with an effort to understand, compassion, and love.

For those of you who are black and are tempted to fill with — be filled with hatred and mistrust of the injustice of such an act, against all white people, I would only say that I can also feel in my own heart the same kind of feeling. I had a member of my family killed, but he was killed by a white man.

But we have to make an effort in the United States. We have to make an effort to understand, to get beyond, or go beyond these rather difficult times.

My favorite poem, my — my favorite poet was Aeschylus. And he once wrote:
Even in our sleep, pain which cannot forget
falls drop by drop upon the heart,
until, in our own despair,
against our will,
comes wisdom
through the awful grace of God.

What we need in the United States is not division; what we need in the United States is not hatred; what we need in the United States is not violence and lawlessness, but is love, and wisdom, and compassion toward one another, and a feeling of justice toward those who still suffer within our country, whether they be white or whether they be black.

So I ask you tonight to return home, to say a prayer for the family of Martin Luther King — yeah, it’s true — but more importantly to say a prayer for our own country, which all of us love — a prayer for understanding and that compassion of which I spoke.

We can do well in this country. We will have difficult times. We’ve had difficult times in the past, but we — and we will have difficult times in the future. It is not the end of violence; it is not the end of lawlessness; and it’s not the end of disorder.

But the vast majority of white people and the vast majority of black people in this country want to live together, want to improve the quality of our life, and want justice for all human beings that abide in our land.

And let’s dedicate ourselves to what the Greeks wrote so many years ago: to tame the savageness of man and make gentle the life of this world. Let us dedicate ourselves to that, and say a prayer for our country and for our people.

Thank you very much.